The truth and nothing but the truth

So, it's yet again proven to be another sleepless night for me. Read through some blogs to see if that would make me sleepy (didn't work btw) and came across a list of 30 truths you're suppose to say about yourself. (Yeah, I totally stole this from you Christina. Sue me later. :-P) Being as impatient as I am I'm just going to answer them all in one shot, 'cuz I can and I'm bored like that. :-P

(1) Something you hate about yourself.
My smile. I look like a friggin' rabbit when I try to smile or it looks like I'm being fake.

(2) Something you love about yourself.
My eyes.

(3) Something you have to forgive yourself for.
a lot of stupid stuff that need not be listed here

(4) Something you have to forgive someone for.
Somebody who was rude to me this past weekend. There's only so many times you can ask God to forgive somebody for what they've done to you before you get tired of it. Some people never change even though they try to act like they have.

(5) Something you hope to do in your life.
Find an awesome job as a graphic design/photographer or both, we'll see.

(6) Something you hope you never have to do.
go to my parent's funeral

(7) Someone who has made your life worth living for.
family, friends; it wouldn't be fair to list just a few names.

(8) Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Ha! The person I mentioned in #4.

(9) Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
a few people actually, but that's life, it sucks.

(10) Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
no one I can think of at the moment.

(11) Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
my hair, don't know why b/c it's a frizz ball right now on account of the rainy, humid weather
or here's another one...my ass, I actually hate this compliment. lol. (while you're looking down that way you can kiss it, ha! lol)

(12) Something you never get compliments on.
idk, my hands? no, that sounds so wrong..... I guess my skin, it's too darn light.

(13) A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
I guess Halestorm or Slipknot, something to help me forget about the day and scream at the top of my lungs like an idiot. lol.(sorry no letter.)

(14) A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Dear Superman,
The inaccurate monstrosity of the past five seasons of Smallville that are suppose to portray you have lead me to think you are boring and that only thing you can do is shoot friggin' lasers from your eyes and have Herculean strength of 1,000,000 car crushers. All I have left of you is an image of Tom Welling in my head, for now that will have to suffice.

(15)Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
I would say my phone, but I went three months w/o it and am still alive and well. Same goes for money (not three months though). Clothes on my back, I am NOT going to go around like the greased up guy off of Family Guy.

(16) Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Just mentioned two. TV, it's not really a necessity, besides I'm too damn busy to think about watching TV this semester.

(17) A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Breaking Dawn, it made me believe that Meyers is a money whore.

(18) Your views on gay marriage.
From a religious stand point I don't go for it, but people gonna do what they're gonna do.

(19) What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
politics suck!!

(20)views on drugs and alcohol.
no for drugs, alcohol only in moderate and no Yeager bombs!

(21) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
thankfully that didn't happen, but I would have felt like shit and go to the hospital when/if anybody let me know to see if they were ok and stay to see what I could do if they still wanted me around at the time.

(22) Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
gotten into a wreck, but that was a cause of an f-ed up light and the inability of people not wanting to use their brake pedal. (the light was fixed after all of that, go figure.)

(23) Something you wish you had done in your life.
Followed the red brick road to see where it lead, that still bugs me. Were does that stinkin' road lead??

(24) Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
I'm not good at the playlist thing (skip)

(25) The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Even though I can't see them somebody was looking over me.

(26) Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
yeah, it was middle and early high school, who didn't?

(27) What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Got a job to pay for all of my photography stuff. That was the one class I was dreading/wanting to take b/c of the cost of everything. Prayers were answered.

(28) What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Well I'm not 16-18 so the age thing doesn't bother me it's the school I would be missing that would be the problem. I would probably take a semester off to get a full-time job to get enough money, drag the father's ass over this way which I don't think would be such a problem now as it was a year ago, have him find a job to help with rent. Buy a crib, bottles, baby clothes, possibly get WIC for baby formula, and try get to get plenty of rest in between all of this b/c I probably won't get any after the baby gets here. Then again, you can't rally plan something like this down to the last detail you usually have to learn as you go.

(29) Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Try to talk to people more even though I really don't know what to say half the time.

(30) A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Dear Me,
I don't hate you. That should cover everything.


Some of these answers would sound better actually hearing me say them than have me type them out because you can never see my expressions. So , yeah, I turned A thirty day truths questionnaire thingy about muah into a five to ten minute read. Don't know how interesting it was, but maybe this will help to understand me a little bit better if you didn't already.